Creating Space

Lately, there has been a lot of future changes happening in my mind and by future changes.. I mean they’re happening in my mind but not quite yet in real life. Adding excitement, anxiousness, newness, etc. as these feelings and emotions overwhelm me. I can’t complain.. this has been the moment I have been waiting for. Growing up, I have dreamt of my own house, kids, a husband, and of course some fur babies. I, of course, never dreamt that I would have developed situational anxiety and (just recently) health anxiety. But then I got engaged and the anxieties began to creep in. So, I knew I needed to return to therapy and get help. I knew it worked before… it has got to help again and of course I wasn’t wrong.

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I return to therapy towards the end of May beginning of June (I think?). And she immediately gave me homework and assignments for that week. The main one being the dreaded meditation. My first thoughts, no. It didn’t work for me before, it won’t work for me again. But, then I realized and some what over analyzed that it didn’t work for me before because I wasn’t serious of change.. I never gave it a try nor did I truly put myself out there to allow change. So, I did the homework and the assignments.

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Thus, starting my daily meditation and journaling routine. I no longer go a day without practicing and journaling my day and night. I have already seen such a HUGE improvement with my daily thoughts and emotions. I began to learn the basics of meditation through an application on my phone that I actually saw off of a Facebook ad, which turned out to be a very useful app. I must give 100% to the app. called 10% Happier ( http://www.10percenthappier.com/ ).

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I went from worrying everyday of how I was feeling,  analyzing every little ache, soreness, anything out of place and wondered… why? Everything had to have a reason and if it didn’t.. well I was going to continue to go through the steps on everything that happened during the day until I found a reason why I felt the way that I felt.. and honestly, there wasn’t really a logical reasoning. Except for one.. and that was simply “just because.” It is my body and it’s functioning properly I just needed to let go of there needing to be a reasoning. Letting my body heal. I allowed my emotions to gain control of my life and over come me with anxieties that were just unnecessary. I wasn’t always like this..

So, let’s take a small step backwards.. back to February to be exact.

A unfamiliar virus attack me and I was sick for a weekend and two days of work. I wasn’t sick to my stomach nor did I have a fever, but my muscles and joints were in so much pain, as well as my neck migraine-like headaches everyday. After the rough four or so days, I developed joint pain (like arthritis type, which I thought was odd). But I continued to press on and get myself back into the work life and back to the gym but I really struggled with any routine and gave up. It was a very dark few months after being sick, I knew something physically was wrong with me and again the anxiety increased because I reacted so negative to everything I was feeling. I felt like I was drowning.

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After a few more months of feeling like I was drowning, my mother decided to sit down with me and have a simple conversation with me about how I am wasting away worrying about every tiny thing that I feel. She was right and IDK what it was about that conversation but I listened. I cried a ton but I listened. The next day, I hopped out of it and agreed to focus more on my meditations and work harder on my homework that my therapist was giving me, at the same time, allowing myself to not be so hard on myself when I slipped up.

As of today, I am sitting here with my glass of water and Frank Sinatra serenading me softly in my ears, typing this blog, all while Matthew (my fiancé now :)) is playing GTA 5. I am day dreaming while staring out the patio door, watching the rain trickle down. My heart, body, mind all feel at peace.

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Now, I feel that I can return to my wedding planning and preparing myself for going back to school! As well as being supportive and communicating better with my fiancé simply because my mind is more open and clear, as I teach myself about being mindful. I am learning how to feel emotions but not react to them in a negative way or to just not react to them at all. I will explain more about what I am learning in more blog posts… I just wanted to share and update you.

I have a feeling that I am on a new adventurous path blessed by God because of the storm that I just went through. I am looking forward to where this will all lead me. Maybe my writings will help you one day to get out of the rut you’re currently in.

Until next time my friends! I hope you all have a blessed week and I hope to post another post soon. (:

 

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Welcoming Myself Back!

Honestly, I wasn’t sure I would ever be back on this site. Not that there is a problem it’s just… I am horrible at finishing what I start, or continuing what I start in this case. I have been going through a lot of growth and changes since my last blog post, which I honestly don’t even know when that was! So yes, I am welcoming myself back to the world of blogging because like everyone else, I have a story to tell. Might not be all in one blog post.. maybe multiple ones. But all in all, God is so good and He has blesses me GREATLY! I have been walking through hills and valley’s since February and I am finally starting to see and understand the chosen pathway that God has blessed me with!

 

So, with that being said, I would like to write about me. I know my previous posts were all about my weaving and hand lettering and creations (I think). But, currently things are changing right before my very eyes! I am going back to school for Psychology with a slight idea on where I would like this degree to take me. I would like to Master in Psychology or Special Education.. still unsure at the moment. All I know, as of today, is that God has placed me on this Earth to help others. Whether that is young children who have Autism, Behaviors, or people who just need counseling for anxiety or depression, like what I go through on a daily. I have dreams and I have ideas.. I have a huge passion for learning and for succeeding. So, come and join me on my new adventures on becoming a passionate and growing person and maybe in my writings and my journey that I have helped you in some way or another.

Last thing for this post, I have no idea or even a schedule on when I am planning on posting. I know that I should keep a regular routine. Maybe once a week or twice? I don’t really know quite yet. I am hoping that I can find something that works for me!

Anyways, thank you for reading and may your day be filled with pure bliss and happiness 🙂

 

Sunday, Funday!

You can tell that summer has arrived! Finally, it’s warm enough to go out and get a sun tan. This year will be different for my family, though. Why is that? Well, as you may know (or hey, maybe you don’t!) I left my job at Dicks Sporting Goods, about two months ago but before I left, my parents decided to invest in some kayaks with my awesome discount! So, WE HAVE KAYAKS NOW, YAY!

So, as you can probably guess… my mother and I went kayaking on this beautiful sunny Sunday!

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We usually go to Pinchot State Park in PA. Pinchot is a beautiful park surrounding a pretty huge lake. There are a ton of different entrances and boating docks at different locations all around the lake. Are boat dock was located an hour from the location of the photo above. What a beautiful, hot day Sunday. I still can’t get over how much fun I had that day.

Have you thought about purchasing a kayak yet? Or maybe you’re trying to find the right time? Well, that is what we (my mother and I) thought when the idea crossed our minds, “Oh, we should probably wait and see…” or “We should wait and see next year” or “next season…” same old same old. But, we finally bit the bullet and got ourselves two kayaks. Now, we bought our kayaks at Dicks Sporting Goods which is what I mentioned above.. but you can find kayaks at a cheaper cost online. I’m sure you can find great deals on Amazon, but let me do the hard work for you and simply show you a few awesome kayaks that I found already with some pretty awesome prices!

Here are a few great Kayaks to check out:

  1. Sun Dolphin Aruba Sit-in Kayak (Lime, 10-Feet)
  2. Lifetime Tioga Sit-On-Top Kayak with Paddle (2 Pack), Lime, 120″
  3. BKC UH-RA220 11.5 foot Riptide Angler Sit On Top Fishing Kayak with Paddles and Upright Chair and Rudder System Included (Camo)

Kayaking can be expensive to start, but I guarantee you, they will last for a long, long time and it’s such a great outdoor activity and not to mention an amazing workout!

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Also, who doesn’t love a nice relaxing day on the water, soaking up the sun while you take a break from paddling!?

Speaking of paddles, if you seriously are considering kayaking, let’s talk about accessories that come with purchasing kayaks.

A paddle is a given. You can’t row yourself down a stream without a paddle, right?! You also need a few extra things as well… such as a life jacket (those are required on your boat, but for most places not required to wear them), whistle, paddle connector (connects to your paddle and your boat), kayak car mount, and kayak garage hanger, boat launch permit (for State waters).

I know, I know.. I feel like I can see right through this screen at your eyes popping out of your skull with the items needed to kayak!! I promise you, it will be all worth it in the end.

You also can’t forget your sunscreen, coolers filled with beverages and sandwiches as well as your sunglasses for those bright sunny days and maybe a little tanning lotion to give yourself a little treat when you’re laying out sun bathing away.

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I guess I just kinda sounded like a sales lady for a little bit there, didn’t I? Well, I’ve worked in retail for over six years, so I’ve had some experience with it to the point where, I sometimes don’t know that I am doing it! I’ve had a lot of practice, haha!

Let’s talk a minute about my new found love for kayaking!

The different sounds you hear on the water is completely different then the sounds you hear off the water, when you’re hiking or just sitting on the shore line with your toes in the water. What is fascinating is when you’re on the water, sound travels so much faster and clearer than it does when you’re not on the water. You can hear conversations from miles upstream, so interesting… isn’t it? (okay, someone told me that and I believe it because I’ve tested it out these last two weeks being in my kayak).

What I love most about kayaking, is the relaxation you feel just floating there. I practice meditation and I try to be mindful of the present moment rather than figuring out what I am going to do later that evening or the list of stuff I have to do that has yet to get done and when I am in my kayak floating, I am quiet. Listening to nature itself and to my surprise, my mind is quiet (which usually never happens).

But moving on, it was a beautiful end to my weekend. I am so looking forward to my three week break from work to spend a few of those days, kayaking before heading off to my vacations for the month of June!

Is anyone else leaving in June for any vacations and you’re super excited for, like me?! Feel free to comment below, your trips and/or vacation ideas! I love to travel so of course, I would love to hear your future trip and vacation plans! 

(Hi, my sales lady senses are back) Below, I am adding a few extra links to some items that you may need if you are seriously thinking about purchasing kayaks, or HECK, maybe you already have a kayak and you need some other accessories.There is no pressure in needing to purchase a single thing today, but I’ve listed everything you need here, so you don’t have to go searching the Internet yourself for them, so feel free to click and browse… the links are there for you.

Important Stuff:

1. Kayak Paddle
2. Whistles
3. Life Jackets
4. Car Mount
5. Kayak Garage Hanger

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I hope everyone had an amazing weekend and just like us all, we can’t wait for this coming weekend!

 

Have a blessed day, everyone!

It’s Been A While…

Hello again, world! It truly has been quite a while since I’ve last written anything on here. Lately, it’s been weekend after weekend of traveling to Ohio, to Pittsburgh, to Ohio, back home! It’s been a good few months, heres what has been going on…

 

  1. I nailed a new job! I work as a para-educator along side of younger children who are autistic and support them in teaching!
  2. I have been three months consistent at the gym! YAS! That is one major goal nailed in the coffin, done! Accomplished and so proud! It’s taken me long enough, I decided to bite the bullet and get a personal trainer, who has changed my mind from loving bodybuilding and nothing else.. to loving Crossfit! Currently, I am lifting heavier and getting stronger! YAS!
  3. More time with God, yes. Since consistency has worked for me at the gym, now I am trying to stay consistent with my study time with God. There is so much to learn reading the word of God and I smile every time.
  4. My relationship with my man, Matthew has grown so much. We are just so close now. I thank God for that everyday and more!

That’s pretty much it. I wouldn’t mind staying consistent with writing, even if no one reads my blogs. I am content just writing them! I want to share my knowledge with the world on all the books and studying I do with God. Sometimes people just don’t have all the time in the world to sit and read books but a short blog post recapping the most important things a book has could benefit anyone really.

I will post more at a later time but the book I am reading is called “Your Beautiful Purpose” by Susie Larson. I actually went to a woman’s retreat in Maryland and she was just so wonderful. A weekend filled of her stories and wisdom to teach me how to grow better. With that being said, my mom and grandma both bought all her books she had on display. YUP. Our family is filled with bookworms. Which I don’t mind. I love getting lost in a good book, but more importantly, now I love getting lost in a good book on wisdom and how to better myself in the Truth.

Since I am almost done reading this book though, I may only post or write about the end of the book and try and recap the whole book as best as I can. Or I’ll just start a new book and begin blogging then.

I can’t decide. But slow and steady and with patience, I’m sure God will let me know what book I should tell the world about. Or the 3-4 people who decide to read my blog.

 

Anyways, Matthew and I are going out for this Friday evening. With that being said, I need to stop writing and get my butt into the shower and get semi decent for whatever tonight brings the both of us 🙂 HAVE A WONDERFUL FRIDAY and a BLESSED WEEKEND. I love all my reader and thank you for stopping by!

 

LOVE ALWAYS,

Bryanna Lynne

Oh Goodness Me, It’s Been A While!

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Yes, it truly has been quite some time since I posted anything on my blog. My mind as been on a rollercoaster of TO DO lists to complete as well as “Stuff that really needs to get done or change…” I always have stuff I have to do, stuff that needs done, rarely ever do I actually stop, rest, and just sit and read a damn book for once.

I use too, I use to spend my entire day off seeing how many Assassin’s Creed memories I can complete in 5 hours. Yup! The gamer girl life. Now, I enjoy the video game noise in the background when my hunk of ham plays or I listen to The Rad Brad play a game on Youtube while I sit there completing another weave or hand lettering something for my Etsy page.

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Yup, that’s what has been going on in my life lately. Starting my Etsy (<– yay! I did it), building inventory and clients, getting more views and learning how the SEO works and how I can benefit myself with it, etc, etc.. I have to say, I am slightly exhausted from all of today’s work. I learned a lot, now I am just hoping for more traffic.. fingers crossed!

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So how about it? I am currently making a whole bunch of mini weaves and medium sized weaves for my page as well as learning embroidery, which I have to say.. is really awesome, I love it. Also, I wouldn’t mind adding some photography (digital downloads) and hand lettering.

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That’s really all I have for you today, I am going to post some images from my Etsy and what is available. Thanks to all of you for reading and viewing my blog and thanks ahead of time for checking out my page. If you missed the part at the beginning, you can use a coupon since my shop is pretty new and you can save 20% off on any weave on my site which will end Feb. 18, 2017. Use the COUPON CODE: NEWSHOP at the checkout!

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Thanks guys for reading, I hope to have more blog posts more often now with some different content and such.

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Details of Her Day

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I decided to share a little bit of my detailed images from a brides wedding that I photographed back in the fall. It was a beautiful fall, crisp day. The venue was stunning, leaves were falling and the sky was glowing in an orange hue as the sun was high in the sky and oh you better believe the sunset was gorgeous. However, I was inside the reception hall by the time the sun was setting, I believe. It was a few months since I photographed her day.

I have to say, out of all the photography subjects you could love and adore. I choose detail shots, landscape, and macro (close-up).

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I also experimented with different actions I have come to acquire in Photoshop to enhance each of these photos artistically to look and feel spectacular, just like her day was!
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I knew this blog post was going to be short and sweet but I just felt the need to share some of my photography with you guys! If you are curious or have questions about photography, please feel free to ask! I will be happy to answer your questions.

Thank you guys for reading and I hope you all have a wonderful day!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Cheers To A New Year!!

 

farm-2Out with the old and in with the new! Goodbye 2016 and Hello 2017!

Let me just start off and say, this post might be a long one.. I haven’t decided whether to split this post up into two. I have resolutions to share with you but I also want to share with you my awesome weekend! So, you have been warned a head of time!

I always loved reading everyone’s new years resolutions.. I am sure after this post of sharing mine, I’ll be hunting down more blogs and Instagram posts of random people’s resolution posts. I love to be inspired and I am motivated easily, so if I spot someone’s goal and it sounds like something I might want to try, BOOM! That’s something new for me to try!

But, before I get started with that… Let me share my awesome weekend with my amazing boyfriend who has given me another fantastic adventure!

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I see this road a lot, ever since I was a little lady with curious eyes looking left and right and taking in all the scenery, and this weekend I saw it again!

Matthew bought tickets to see the Steelers, Browns game on New Years Day! For Christmas, I bought him the Pittsburgh Penguins New Years Eve tickets so that being said, we were both super pumped for our two days of professional sports teams hard at work!

I travel to Ohio a lot, my grandparents reside in a beautiful 4+ acre land across the boarder of Pennsylvania. So this drive was cake walk.

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I won’t bore you with the traveling details and what not.. But we got to the hotel, which I have to say was the most confusing hotel I have ever been in. One elevator went up to 7 floors and we had to find the elevator that would take us to the 13th floor. Needless to say, we had to ask for help and finally found our room and unpacked.

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Pittsburgh is a city filled with spirit and excitement. The fans here are just fantastic, more of a reason why Matthew is veering me to the Steelers. I never had a favorite Hockey or Baseball team. But after seeing the Pirates and Pens play, I love them! Steelers however, it’s been tough. Especially since I have stayed semi- hopeful that the Browns might bring victory, YEAH RIGHT! But because my family was born and raised in Ohio, therefore hopeful and supportive of the Browns, with regular head shaking. But I have been pretty impressed with the Pittsburgh Steelers, I’m sure it won’t take much more to convince me.

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Moving forward, the Penguins hockey game was one of the games that you stayed on the edge of your seat the entire evening! Overtime, and BOOM! The Pittsburgh crowd jumps to their feet a few minutes in hooting and hollering for the Pens score to win the game!

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Heading back to the hotel, tired but forcing my heavy eyes to stay awake for the ball drop! Matthew suggests food at the bar located in the main lobby, food sounded great and I needed the energy to enjoy my last meal of the old year!

In a matter of minutes, as a look at my phone, the ball is about to drop. Wow, where did that hour go? We got into the bar an hour before the new year and all of a sudden I am hearing the countdown with enthusiastic people shouting, “5!, 4!, 3!, 2!,… HAPPY NEW YEAR!” and of course, I share my first seconds of 2017 kissing my hunk.

How exciting… we finish our evening with cuddles, TV and a good night sleep. My thoughts of course, are going a mile a minute.. Things I want to do, make better, change, and take away. But, exhaustion takes the best of me and I shut my eyes my head on my mans chest, warmth in the comfort of his arms, and a smile on my face. Life is good and I’ve got another great year up ahead.

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The morning arises, and might I add how the room had a soft morning glow. My alarm slowly awakens me and I noticed the slight light beginning to illuminate the white walls and my second thoughts of the new year is “oh, how beautiful.” My heart begins to beat even more as I realize that today is the day I see my first NFL game, ever! I quickly wake Matthew and tell him to get up and get dressed!

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We hit the streets of Pittsburgh and as we walk to the stadium an hour before the gates open, I see this homeless man. Given, we’re in the city and there are lot’s of them. Standing there with their signs and faces of hopefulness and my heart feels for them. I’m freezing in my layers of warmth and yet, they’re three layers less than myself. But one homeless man stood out to me. As I was walking towards the stadium, I passed him. I notice he’s siting rather than standing, a typical sign saying the usual so my eyes move on to his limb.. it’s missing! Oh my, my heart beats with sadness.

We found some food along side of the stadium and I was craving a cheeseburger, however, I was not craving fries, but I asked for them anyways and gave the man my card. I eat about 5 fries and I complete my burger. Matt tells me he is burning up with his layers and as we check the clock, we have time to walk back to his truck and remove some of our layers.

The siting homeless man is still there, limb still missing, my heart still beating with empathy. I decide that these fries weren’t for me, I walked up to the man and told him,
“I am sorry that this is not money, but I brought you some fries” he lite up and smiled. He said something to the fact that it did not matter if it was money, he gladly excepted the French fries and shortly after I believe he received a beverage from someone else! I felt so much better after I gave the man my fries. So much better.

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My day was made and I must say, a great start to my 2017 new year, new me. steelers

Just look at that view! But oh baby, was I ever so cold!? Yeah, I should have kept my layers on for this game. The sun was not on our seats at all. But that’s okay, we had each other to hold onto. Regardless, the game was exciting believe it or not.. they went into overtime and scored on a beautiful touch down which one the game!

That is it! That is my New Years eve and day adventure! But before I sign off for the evening I want to share my quick thoughts of my resolutions, there are many more but I’ll share some of them and I won’t put much detail but I will in another post all about it!

  • New Years Resolutions:
    • Healthy Eating and Exercise (duh!)
    • Get my Weaves on Etsy and sell!
    • Practice Macramé and eventually put on Etsy as well!
    • Organize both my rooms and de-clutter, clothing and all!
    • Read one book a month (thanks to @theweekendexplorer my friend Stephanie for that idea, who also blogs! Feel free to check her out on Instagram and WordPress if you’d like)
    • Blog more, constantly
    • IMPORTANT: Get my Word and Excel certifications off of Microsoft so I can add that to my resume to help me get a full time position in Wellspan.
    • Additional (to above): work on Windows 8.1 + certifications and learn more about working with Windows to add to my resume for possible IT positions in the future.

 

That’s it for now, the rest are a mystery, even to me! I hope everyone had a fantastic New Years eve and day! Thank you all for reading and viewing my blog. You all are beautiful and fantastic and you all are gifted lovelies!

Good day! or Evening, whenever you are reading this 😉

LOVE always,

Bryanna Lynne