Creating Space

Lately, there has been a lot of future changes happening in my mind and by future changes.. I mean they’re happening in my mind but not quite yet in real life. Adding excitement, anxiousness, newness, etc. as these feelings and emotions overwhelm me. I can’t complain.. this has been the moment I have been waiting for. Growing up, I have dreamt of my own house, kids, a husband, and of course some fur babies. I, of course, never dreamt that I would have developed situational anxiety and (just recently) health anxiety. But then I got engaged and the anxieties began to creep in. So, I knew I needed to return to therapy and get help. I knew it worked before… it has got to help again and of course I wasn’t wrong.

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I return to therapy towards the end of May beginning of June (I think?). And she immediately gave me homework and assignments for that week. The main one being the dreaded meditation. My first thoughts, no. It didn’t work for me before, it won’t work for me again. But, then I realized and some what over analyzed that it didn’t work for me before because I wasn’t serious of change.. I never gave it a try nor did I truly put myself out there to allow change. So, I did the homework and the assignments.

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Thus, starting my daily meditation and journaling routine. I no longer go a day without practicing and journaling my day and night. I have already seen such a HUGE improvement with my daily thoughts and emotions. I began to learn the basics of meditation through an application on my phone that I actually saw off of a Facebook ad, which turned out to be a very useful app. I must give 100% to the app. called 10% Happier ( http://www.10percenthappier.com/ ).

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I went from worrying everyday of how I was feeling,  analyzing every little ache, soreness, anything out of place and wondered… why? Everything had to have a reason and if it didn’t.. well I was going to continue to go through the steps on everything that happened during the day until I found a reason why I felt the way that I felt.. and honestly, there wasn’t really a logical reasoning. Except for one.. and that was simply “just because.” It is my body and it’s functioning properly I just needed to let go of there needing to be a reasoning. Letting my body heal. I allowed my emotions to gain control of my life and over come me with anxieties that were just unnecessary. I wasn’t always like this..

So, let’s take a small step backwards.. back to February to be exact.

A unfamiliar virus attack me and I was sick for a weekend and two days of work. I wasn’t sick to my stomach nor did I have a fever, but my muscles and joints were in so much pain, as well as my neck migraine-like headaches everyday. After the rough four or so days, I developed joint pain (like arthritis type, which I thought was odd). But I continued to press on and get myself back into the work life and back to the gym but I really struggled with any routine and gave up. It was a very dark few months after being sick, I knew something physically was wrong with me and again the anxiety increased because I reacted so negative to everything I was feeling. I felt like I was drowning.

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After a few more months of feeling like I was drowning, my mother decided to sit down with me and have a simple conversation with me about how I am wasting away worrying about every tiny thing that I feel. She was right and IDK what it was about that conversation but I listened. I cried a ton but I listened. The next day, I hopped out of it and agreed to focus more on my meditations and work harder on my homework that my therapist was giving me, at the same time, allowing myself to not be so hard on myself when I slipped up.

As of today, I am sitting here with my glass of water and Frank Sinatra serenading me softly in my ears, typing this blog, all while Matthew (my fiancé now :)) is playing GTA 5. I am day dreaming while staring out the patio door, watching the rain trickle down. My heart, body, mind all feel at peace.

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Now, I feel that I can return to my wedding planning and preparing myself for going back to school! As well as being supportive and communicating better with my fiancé simply because my mind is more open and clear, as I teach myself about being mindful. I am learning how to feel emotions but not react to them in a negative way or to just not react to them at all. I will explain more about what I am learning in more blog posts… I just wanted to share and update you.

I have a feeling that I am on a new adventurous path blessed by God because of the storm that I just went through. I am looking forward to where this will all lead me. Maybe my writings will help you one day to get out of the rut you’re currently in.

Until next time my friends! I hope you all have a blessed week and I hope to post another post soon. (:

 

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Welcoming Myself Back!

Honestly, I wasn’t sure I would ever be back on this site. Not that there is a problem it’s just… I am horrible at finishing what I start, or continuing what I start in this case. I have been going through a lot of growth and changes since my last blog post, which I honestly don’t even know when that was! So yes, I am welcoming myself back to the world of blogging because like everyone else, I have a story to tell. Might not be all in one blog post.. maybe multiple ones. But all in all, God is so good and He has blesses me GREATLY! I have been walking through hills and valley’s since February and I am finally starting to see and understand the chosen pathway that God has blessed me with!

 

So, with that being said, I would like to write about me. I know my previous posts were all about my weaving and hand lettering and creations (I think). But, currently things are changing right before my very eyes! I am going back to school for Psychology with a slight idea on where I would like this degree to take me. I would like to Master in Psychology or Special Education.. still unsure at the moment. All I know, as of today, is that God has placed me on this Earth to help others. Whether that is young children who have Autism, Behaviors, or people who just need counseling for anxiety or depression, like what I go through on a daily. I have dreams and I have ideas.. I have a huge passion for learning and for succeeding. So, come and join me on my new adventures on becoming a passionate and growing person and maybe in my writings and my journey that I have helped you in some way or another.

Last thing for this post, I have no idea or even a schedule on when I am planning on posting. I know that I should keep a regular routine. Maybe once a week or twice? I don’t really know quite yet. I am hoping that I can find something that works for me!

Anyways, thank you for reading and may your day be filled with pure bliss and happiness 🙂

 

Sunday, Funday!

You can tell that summer has arrived! Finally, it’s warm enough to go out and get a sun tan. This year will be different for my family, though. Why is that? Well, as you may know (or hey, maybe you don’t!) I left my job at Dicks Sporting Goods, about two months ago but before I left, my parents decided to invest in some kayaks with my awesome discount! So, WE HAVE KAYAKS NOW, YAY!

So, as you can probably guess… my mother and I went kayaking on this beautiful sunny Sunday!

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We usually go to Pinchot State Park in PA. Pinchot is a beautiful park surrounding a pretty huge lake. There are a ton of different entrances and boating docks at different locations all around the lake. Are boat dock was located an hour from the location of the photo above. What a beautiful, hot day Sunday. I still can’t get over how much fun I had that day.

Have you thought about purchasing a kayak yet? Or maybe you’re trying to find the right time? Well, that is what we (my mother and I) thought when the idea crossed our minds, “Oh, we should probably wait and see…” or “We should wait and see next year” or “next season…” same old same old. But, we finally bit the bullet and got ourselves two kayaks. Now, we bought our kayaks at Dicks Sporting Goods which is what I mentioned above.. but you can find kayaks at a cheaper cost online. I’m sure you can find great deals on Amazon, but let me do the hard work for you and simply show you a few awesome kayaks that I found already with some pretty awesome prices!

Here are a few great Kayaks to check out:

  1. Sun Dolphin Aruba Sit-in Kayak (Lime, 10-Feet)
  2. Lifetime Tioga Sit-On-Top Kayak with Paddle (2 Pack), Lime, 120″
  3. BKC UH-RA220 11.5 foot Riptide Angler Sit On Top Fishing Kayak with Paddles and Upright Chair and Rudder System Included (Camo)

Kayaking can be expensive to start, but I guarantee you, they will last for a long, long time and it’s such a great outdoor activity and not to mention an amazing workout!

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Also, who doesn’t love a nice relaxing day on the water, soaking up the sun while you take a break from paddling!?

Speaking of paddles, if you seriously are considering kayaking, let’s talk about accessories that come with purchasing kayaks.

A paddle is a given. You can’t row yourself down a stream without a paddle, right?! You also need a few extra things as well… such as a life jacket (those are required on your boat, but for most places not required to wear them), whistle, paddle connector (connects to your paddle and your boat), kayak car mount, and kayak garage hanger, boat launch permit (for State waters).

I know, I know.. I feel like I can see right through this screen at your eyes popping out of your skull with the items needed to kayak!! I promise you, it will be all worth it in the end.

You also can’t forget your sunscreen, coolers filled with beverages and sandwiches as well as your sunglasses for those bright sunny days and maybe a little tanning lotion to give yourself a little treat when you’re laying out sun bathing away.

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I guess I just kinda sounded like a sales lady for a little bit there, didn’t I? Well, I’ve worked in retail for over six years, so I’ve had some experience with it to the point where, I sometimes don’t know that I am doing it! I’ve had a lot of practice, haha!

Let’s talk a minute about my new found love for kayaking!

The different sounds you hear on the water is completely different then the sounds you hear off the water, when you’re hiking or just sitting on the shore line with your toes in the water. What is fascinating is when you’re on the water, sound travels so much faster and clearer than it does when you’re not on the water. You can hear conversations from miles upstream, so interesting… isn’t it? (okay, someone told me that and I believe it because I’ve tested it out these last two weeks being in my kayak).

What I love most about kayaking, is the relaxation you feel just floating there. I practice meditation and I try to be mindful of the present moment rather than figuring out what I am going to do later that evening or the list of stuff I have to do that has yet to get done and when I am in my kayak floating, I am quiet. Listening to nature itself and to my surprise, my mind is quiet (which usually never happens).

But moving on, it was a beautiful end to my weekend. I am so looking forward to my three week break from work to spend a few of those days, kayaking before heading off to my vacations for the month of June!

Is anyone else leaving in June for any vacations and you’re super excited for, like me?! Feel free to comment below, your trips and/or vacation ideas! I love to travel so of course, I would love to hear your future trip and vacation plans! 

(Hi, my sales lady senses are back) Below, I am adding a few extra links to some items that you may need if you are seriously thinking about purchasing kayaks, or HECK, maybe you already have a kayak and you need some other accessories.There is no pressure in needing to purchase a single thing today, but I’ve listed everything you need here, so you don’t have to go searching the Internet yourself for them, so feel free to click and browse… the links are there for you.

Important Stuff:

1. Kayak Paddle
2. Whistles
3. Life Jackets
4. Car Mount
5. Kayak Garage Hanger

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I hope everyone had an amazing weekend and just like us all, we can’t wait for this coming weekend!

 

Have a blessed day, everyone!

It’s Been A While…

Hello again, world! It truly has been quite a while since I’ve last written anything on here. Lately, it’s been weekend after weekend of traveling to Ohio, to Pittsburgh, to Ohio, back home! It’s been a good few months, heres what has been going on…

 

  1. I nailed a new job! I work as a para-educator along side of younger children who are autistic and support them in teaching!
  2. I have been three months consistent at the gym! YAS! That is one major goal nailed in the coffin, done! Accomplished and so proud! It’s taken me long enough, I decided to bite the bullet and get a personal trainer, who has changed my mind from loving bodybuilding and nothing else.. to loving Crossfit! Currently, I am lifting heavier and getting stronger! YAS!
  3. More time with God, yes. Since consistency has worked for me at the gym, now I am trying to stay consistent with my study time with God. There is so much to learn reading the word of God and I smile every time.
  4. My relationship with my man, Matthew has grown so much. We are just so close now. I thank God for that everyday and more!

That’s pretty much it. I wouldn’t mind staying consistent with writing, even if no one reads my blogs. I am content just writing them! I want to share my knowledge with the world on all the books and studying I do with God. Sometimes people just don’t have all the time in the world to sit and read books but a short blog post recapping the most important things a book has could benefit anyone really.

I will post more at a later time but the book I am reading is called “Your Beautiful Purpose” by Susie Larson. I actually went to a woman’s retreat in Maryland and she was just so wonderful. A weekend filled of her stories and wisdom to teach me how to grow better. With that being said, my mom and grandma both bought all her books she had on display. YUP. Our family is filled with bookworms. Which I don’t mind. I love getting lost in a good book, but more importantly, now I love getting lost in a good book on wisdom and how to better myself in the Truth.

Since I am almost done reading this book though, I may only post or write about the end of the book and try and recap the whole book as best as I can. Or I’ll just start a new book and begin blogging then.

I can’t decide. But slow and steady and with patience, I’m sure God will let me know what book I should tell the world about. Or the 3-4 people who decide to read my blog.

 

Anyways, Matthew and I are going out for this Friday evening. With that being said, I need to stop writing and get my butt into the shower and get semi decent for whatever tonight brings the both of us 🙂 HAVE A WONDERFUL FRIDAY and a BLESSED WEEKEND. I love all my reader and thank you for stopping by!

 

LOVE ALWAYS,

Bryanna Lynne

A Little Evening Snow

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I doubt anyone is up currently, but I know that I am. Today, has been a fantastic day. I closed a chapter of my life this evening as 6:00pm rolled around and I clocked out for the final time in the retail business. Years on end since I have graduated from High School, I have been working retail… helping customers left and right, smiling even though I just felt like walking away from some ungrateful people, and of course having to work holidays when all I wanted to do was spend them with my family. Finally, that all has changed and I owe it all to God. I won’t go into the details of my new job this evening, since really this post is about how beautiful the weather is. The snow is falling heavily.

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How beautiful. My eyes begin to shut, slightly. But my heart flutters as I think of the next few things I wouldn’t mind doing before closing my eyes for the rest of tonight. Like a nice hot bath with a book and after I am done with this post, I will be taking my tired self upstairs.

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I won’t take up anymore time this evening, I hope everyone enjoys their day off if you are in the North East of the US. I wish I could share more creative words with you this evening, but sadly I am exhausted.

BUT BEFORE I LEAVE!

I went to the gym this evening, like many nights, and I spent an extra hour or so there because I knew I wasn’t going to be at the gym Tuesday, 10-18 inches doesn’t sound like good traveling conditions. So, I focused on my quads this evening. I did 4 sets of 10-12 with heavier weights less reps. Working on multiple muscles this evening since it was indeed leg day. At the end, I chose to punch for my cardio and to get a little extra arm workout! As much as I would like to go more into detail on my fitness exercises, I won’t tonight. But I am pretty sure that will be a future post!

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Thank you all for taking the time out of your evening to read my blog! It means a lot to me and I look forward to not rambling so much and have some good future blog posts.. but every once in a while, I enjoy a nice ramble! GOODNIGHT everyone and I pray for all those who are affected by this storm! Safe travels if you have to go out..

Love always,

Bryanna

 

Treasured Beyond Measure Pt. 2

Part 1: “The Lies We Believe”

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Chapter 1: “A Man Will Validate My Worth” (Also, Myth 1.)

Before you begin reading, grab a cup of coffee or hot tea, wrap yourself up in a blanket and allow your heart to open to fresh and new ideas. Let’s forget what you’ve been told by friends and family about men maybe everything they told you is true or maybe false, but let’s open our hearts and minds to other possibilities and maybe we can make progress to the gigantic wall you’ve built from heartbreaks and things in your past that have hurt you.

Here are a few questions from the book to prepare us for this first chapter:
-“Who do I say God is?”
-“How important are God’s thoughts in my everyday living?”
-“What do I believe God thinks about me?”
-“How does God describe me?”
-“How is God calling me to change?”

I just want to note: If you are reading this and do not believe in God, it is okay. There is still really good information in this post for you to learn from. If you’re reading this and you’re not very close to God, but you believe there is something or someone out there that’s bigger than us, great! I encourage everyone from anywhere to read these next posts from this book! I learned so much from reading this book and it has helped my mind grow and mature and I have to say, I wouldn’t be the woman I am today if I didn’t read this book.

If you haven’t read my other blog post, you can read it here! I begin telling you about my story. Now, I truly believe that every woman has a story to tell and maybe it hasn’t happened yet and maybe it just happened.

Growing up was tough, let’s be real. As a kid, we struggle with finding our true self and quite honestly, I feel like we don’t find that true self until we’re much older. I didn’t find myself truly until after college. I know that I was always nice, kind, and would never hurt a fly. I was a born an athlete, playing soccer for years and years playing on 3 teams at a time! But, still, growing up was really difficult. I wasn’t the most popular girl in school but I had friends, some would go behind my back and some I would watch go behind other friends backs. But most of all, I struggled with boys.

I was always a tom boy. Since kindergarten, I always hung out with the boys. I always thought they were easier to get along with than girls were and that is semi true. I wasn’t a big fan of all the drama and the things that young girls would talk about. I just simply wanted to kick the soccer ball and score! Or score the game winning points in basketball, or even baseball! I can’t really say I even searched for much attention from anyone, but when I got the attention I didn’t have a problem with it either :).

I have a fantastic father, but I didn’t get the much needed daddy daughter attention that I wanted growing up. Which I hinted was the reason why I had to have my first boyfriend in 3rd grade. Since than, if I didn’t have a boyfriend… let’s just say, I had to have a boyfriend. It made me feel wanted, loved, cherished and special! I didn’t feel lonely either.

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Needless to say, when I opened this book and read the first “lie” or “myth” stating that a man will validate my worth and realizing that this was not true. I gave my full attention to the rest of this chapter wanting to know how this is possible!

Continuing through the chapter I come upon a part where she quotes from a book called “The Fantasy Fallacies” by Shannon Ethridge that always needing to feel loved and wanted from other men could be because of “unsolved daddy issues.” DADDY ISSUES!? I sat there stunned but continued to read on, even more intrigued. I thought to myself, well this makes sense. My dad was never abusive, he was a tough dad but he never physically hurt me. I just never got a whole lot of attention at such a young age. So, it made perfect sense for me to seek it else where.

I don’t want to just sit here and point the finger because quite honestly, I listened to temptation. It all started with Adam & Eve, the devil disguised at a serpent slithered over to Eve and convinced her to eat the apple from the forbidden fruit and of course dragged Adam along in it. If you are unfamiliar with the story of Adam & Eve, open your bibles and go to Genesis, Chapter 3 and read it.

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So, the devil in disguised told me, “hey, you need men to validate your worth” and I listened.

So you want to hear the truth? “No earthly relationship can substitute for our intimacy with God. Men, though created in God’s image, are not God; they cannot save. And, like us, they were born with a fallen nature” (page 25, if you’re following along with me).

So, like I said, regardless of how BIG or how small your story is, we all share one thing in common. The devil seeks to destroy us. He does not want us to share a close relationship with God. So instead, he tells me a man will fill the empty hole in my heart.

“The one thing I hope my daughter knows about men is… that no man will ever love her perfectly. The only One who will ever love her perfectly is Jesus. When she is loved perfectly by Jesus, she will be perfectly okay with whom she is and can patiently wait for God’s perfect choice for her.” – Denny Bates.

Here is the truth and I loved reading this.. once I read this in the book, my broken heart which was cold and crippled from the man I was with (who at the time, cheated on me). My heart was filled with warmth, happiness, and a slightly bigger smile than I was used too…

“Only God can validate your worth, and He loves you deeply, madly, passionately!” (pg. 28)
How great is this feeling? To have someone love you that much and to never stop loving you that much is just so heart warming. At the time of reading this, I was very badly bruised.. my heart was ripped into tiny piece, scattered everywhere and in my mind, I could just see God smiling at me and holding a few of those pieces in His hand, magically piecing them back together. I felt hopeful, and for the longest time I did not feel alone anymore.

So, I think it’s important to include the questions Julie Gorman asks you in this book. This would be a great time to bring your journal out, if you have one or use your phone notebook and reflect on these questions. You can take as long as you need or as short as you need, you don’t even have to answer them on paper, just in your head. But answer them honestly, it’s just you there is no one else you have to talk to. So help yourself by being honest.

  1. Is my happiness contingent upon a man?
  2. Do I care more about a mans opinion then I do about God’s opinion?
  3. Do I allow a man to define my worth, or do I listen to who God says I am?
  4. Have I compromised my faith in order to pursue a man?
  5. Do I struggle, thinking I’ll be happy when I find a man; or wonder, maybe I married the wrong man?pexels-photo-116394

Reflect on yourself, be honest, ask God to help you and listen closely to see if He is saying anything to you as you go through these questions.

As we near the end of the chapter in this book. There is a section of verses to consider:

  1. Isaiah 55: 1-3
  2. Hosea 2:7
  3. Hosea 3:1
  4. Romans 5:6-8
  5. John 4:13-14

(on page 32-33; there are verses and more questions to help reflect and guide you).

Something to remember and I’ll quote this because she wrote it so nicely in the book, “remember, a man (though a wonderful treasure) is in search of his own significance and is incapable of providing your worth. Maintaining a healthy relationship hinges upon your personal relationship with God.” (page 36).

Closing Thoughts

This chapter right off the bat, hit home for me. I always thought I had to have a man to be worth something to someone. When really, all I needed to do was love myself through God. It felt really good to read that I don’t have to be in a relationship with another man because I am loved constantly.

Now today I am with my boyfriend, Matthew and I truly believe this is the man God wants me to be with. I truly believe He gave me these hard life lessons so that I could be prepared for this man He brought into my life. The difference between Matthew and the other boys I have dated… is quite simple. God is the center of my life, God fills the emptiness that is in my heart & I found satisfaction in a relationship with God. I understand that Matthew will not satisfy me completely the only one that can do that is God.

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We are all children of God, whether we believe in Him or not. We were all created to have a relationship with Him.

I pray that regardless of the situation that you’re in today with the story of your life, that you will find peace and happiness in the comfort of knowing that you’re loved.

Thank you for taking the time to read my blog, I really hope you enjoyed my post. Again, this is all from the book: “What I Wish My Mother Had Told Me About Men” by Julie Gorman. You can pick this book up at Lifeway Bookstore.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Monday!

Love,

Bryanna

 

Treasured Beyond Measure Pt. 1

wall2She drifts down the cold, damp street. Hands in her pocket, heels clonking as they hit the pavement. Her long beige trench coat, unbuttoned, waving at the strangers passing by as the wind blows against her long brown hair. She keeps eye contact to a minimum. She does not look around her, with eyes only focused on the ground before her. She had it all; The man, the beauty, & the job that pays her well. But yet, she continues to try to find the answers on the emptiness that fills her heart.
She wonders why she can never find satisfaction in the man she cherishes and who loves her with all of his heart. She thinks back on the funny memories they had and shares a chuckle with the mid-afternoon streets of the city. Her smile returns to a firm grin as she begins to ask the same unanswered question, “Why am I not fully quenched? Why am I not truly happy?”

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This is an absolutely normal feeling, did you know that? Have anyone of you reading this post share something even remotely similar to this? I have! I am not ashamed of this feeling, this was the changing point in my life. Now, I was not that girl that I wrote about. I didn’t think I was beautiful. I thought I had the right man, after dating him for 2.5 years I believed he was the one I was going to marry. I was wrong on so many levels. Let me tell you just a hint of my story and how I told myself, after him, that I would never put myself through that mess again.

Growing up, I knew who God was. I knew about Him and I truly believed I was living the Christian life. I went to church every Sunday. I knew who God was, or so I thought. OH GOODNESS, how wrong I was! But before I tell you who God really is, let me fast forward to the time when I met the man I thought I was going to marry.

A few years ago, I met a boy at the place where I worked. We started dating and we had a great first year “honeymoon.” When the second year came around, I began developing anxiety, which to me at the time was so very scary. I was always irritable, rude, bickering about everything all the time but most of all, I was lonely. This boy and I lived together at my house for 1.5 years. But after a while, he stopped coming around. Long story short, he found another girl. I was devastated. But, after looking back on it now, I wouldn’t have wanted to come home to someone who was always bickering at everything I did.

BUT! It wasn’t all my fault. I went to a therapist to discuss what was wrong with my mind! I couldn’t leave the house, I was too scared. The panic attacks happened everyday sometimes twice a day! I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t relax, I couldn’t be happy. I cried all the time and of course, I was lonely. I had my mothers support and tender love and care. But, I wanted to work through these problems with the man I thought I would marry.

After a few sessions, we dug deep into the words he was saying to me and I found out that there were a lot of red flags popping up left and right. My therapist allowed me to figure this out for myself though, it wasn’t her job to tell me to let him go. I won’t go into detail of the exact words he was saying to me… but in the end, the words basically said that I was not good enough. I truly believe that this was how my anxiety was created.

I was frantically trying to become someone that I wasn’t during those years being with him. Changing my hair, changing my style and what I listened too. These were my years where I tried to find out who I really was through materialistic things to be the best for him.

Needless to say, this is when God showed up and I knew it. That boy cheated on me and I said “were done.” Dropping off the last of his things felt amazing, like the weight of the world that was on my shoulders, began to dissolve. The anxiety began to disappear, not completely cause I still suffer minor anxiousness to this day. I began to smile again. Later did I realize that during all that time of heartbreak and loneliness, I was in chains. I was my own prisoner.

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SO, why did I tell you that? Well, I most certainly know that I am not the only woman who has gone through something like this.. Those are the moments in our life that God uses to help us grow! That moment was the game changer. I told God that I wanted to learn to love like He loves, I want to live my life how Jesus lived His. I wanted a life, through God. I wanted a relationship with the only man who truly believed in me and never ever gave up on me.

When I decided this, my mom took me to Lifeway and I picked up a book called “What I Wish My Mother Had Told Me About Men” by Julie Gorman. I asked God before walking in, to show me what He wanted me to read to help myself heal quickly.

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I want to go over this book in my first book series of my blog. I know a lot of women these days do not have the time to sit and read books. But this book is so important for women to read because it is a book on all the myths that social media tells us. Myths on how relationships are suppose to be and how men are suppose to be. But, she tells us how God wants us to be.

So, if you don’t have time to read this book. Tune into my blog and I can describe and give you reflections and questions that Julie Gorman asked me! Also, my views on the sections and chapters that I read.

I still recommend picking the book up and reading as much or as little as you would like on your own. I am not a professional writer and reading this book will give you the most benefit. It really is a great book to read and it has helped me and has opened my eyes and I guess you can say “matured” me for the man I am suppose to marry

Remember, we all have a story. It may not all be extreme, but everyone has their unique story. I wouldn’t mind hearing yours! Feel free to comment or send me an email if you every want to talk! Through these sections, I will be open for discussion, answer questions, etc.

Thank you for reading and tune in for Part 2.

Have a beautiful rest of your Sunday!

Love,

Bryanna